Acronym Schmacronym and other Random Ramblings

I live in a world of acronyms and abbreviations. All day long at work I hear people talking about GON, EOM, ERP, HCI, ST, HCIT, SC, IIS, DI, …I think you get the picture. It’s like a foreign language and we even have an online dictionary to help people learn what all the acronyms and abbreviations stand for. I try not to use any of these outside of work.

I’ve added a whole slew of other acronyms to my written vocabulary over the last two years. I try to not use these when talking to anyone about TTC, especially people at work. My new acronyms include, but are not limited to TTC, O, AF, LP, MA, MFI, DPO, DH, H&H, BBT, EWCM, IUI, IVF, FET, HSG, HCG...

I never thought it would take more than a year to get pregnant. I also didn’t think I’d be home schooling myself. I’ve read more books about TTC than I ever wanted to. I’m more familiar with my cervix’s ups and downs than any sane person should be. I could write my own book if I wanted to.

I can do anything. Be anything…Except pregnant. I know we aren’t pregnant this cycle since we didn’t do any MA, but that doesn’t help ease the tension of the New Year. It’s not the holidays themselves that are the problem. My issue is trying to keep my mind off the thought that we’ve been at this for almost 2 years. Ringing in 2009 without a child and without being pregnant doesn’t sound like much fun when I’ve been ttc since early 2007. Last year I was calling my OBGYN at this time because I knew something was wrong and I didn’t want to go much longer without MA. Now I’ve wasted 2 month “recovering” from a miscarriage that a nurse told me was “probably non-viable from the start anyway” as if I shouldn’t be upset about it. I’ve wasted 5 months on clomid. I’ve wasted 3 months sitting around waiting for MA again and I’m about to go into a fourth. I feel like the past years were a waste. I wish there was a way to tell someone is infertile before going through years of not getting pregnant.