Time seems to be moving quickly. I can't believe I'll be 8 weeks tomorrow. Things seem to be okay so far. We saw the heart beating for the first time on Jan 14. It was the most amazing experience for both of us. I was a little nervous for the appointment, but knowing my betas looked good helped calm me a bit. We couldn't see much of anything besides the heart. My doc wanted me to come back for a follow up 2 weeks after the initial appointment, so this upcoming Wednesday (Jan 28), Cork and I will be back there for another u/s. Waiting so long to get pregnant has one advantage and that's getting to see the baby more than once or twice via u/s.

I'm feeling okay. I usually wake up around 5:30 and feel awesome. I go to the gym, work out, come home, eat breakfast and then it starts to hit. By 9:00 am every day I'm feeling off. I wouldn't say I'm nauseous, but I'm very gaggy. The thought of certain foods makes me start to gag. We had pasta with red sauce at a friends house last Sunday night. I was able to eat that, but can't eat anything tomato if I prepare it. I bought a bunch of tomatoes 2 weeks ago to make this spicy Mexican pasta dish that I love, but the tomatoes are now over the hill and have to be throw out. I couldn't make myself cook with them. Most days around noon is my worst time and I start gradually feeling better starting around 2:00 pm. By the time I go to bed, I'm exhausted, but no longer feeling quite as bad. My sister had horrible m/s with both of her kids for months, so as long as this baby is healthy, I'm counting myself lucky.

We had a very long weekend last week. We were out late all three nights and I was a wreck by Monday. I could barely function at work. I came home and slept for 2.5 hours. I'm looking forward to a much more relaxed weekend this week.

Who to tell, when to tell

We have only told a few family members so far. My parents, sister and BIL’s reactions were great. My MIL’s was pretty un-reactive, but in her defense, we told her with her mother and husband in another room and we didn’t want them to know yet.

Last night we told our neighbors. It felt so good to tell someone else. I wish I could tell everything, but we both want to wait until the 2nd trimester. We told our neighbors because they experienced 10 years of infertility and multiple losses. They are the most amazing couple who now have two beautiful children. They have been so helpful over the last two years. It’s been wonderful to have someone to talk to IRL who knows what it’s like to experience infertility and what it’s like to experience a loss during infertility.

We have our first ultrasound on Wednesday and I’m so nervous about it. I’m not thinking about it because I don’t want to work myself up. I’m tired and my breasts are sore, but besides that I’m feeling great. I almost wish I had morning sickness so I could be reassured everything is ok.

Cranky New Year!!!

That pretty much sums up my ending to last night. I was exhausted and told Cork I was cranky and going to bed.

We invited a few of people over for NYE before we knew I was pregnant. We decided to make it easy so had great aps from Trader Joes and home made pizza. Cork makes the best whole wheat pizza dough! The night was a lot of fun, but we didn’t get everyone to leave until after 1:00. I’m glad we had people over, but I was ready for bed by 10:30. I can’t remember half of what people said after that.

I got to tell my parents yesterday that I am pregnant. My mom was stunned and didn’t know what to say for a few seconds then she started crying. None of us expected me to be pregnant since we weren’t doing any MA. She was asking me if I’d been able to sort out any of my infertility insurance issues for next year and I told her I may not need to because I’m pregnant. It was so much fun to finally tell her. The last time I wanted to tell her in person, but she and my dad were on vacation and I miscarried before they got home. My dad was as excited as her, but didn’t cry J. You’d think they didn’t have any other grandchildren with how excited they are. I’m glad they can be as excited for this one (number 11) as they were for the first one.